Readers need to know at this point that I have long surrendered to my delusions. It's even in my Design! It takes a person who has become used to....I"ll call it mutation - but that won't help you understand my issue with delusion. The problem with our ordinary human consciousness, and the evidence of original sin is that we men take this life personally and seriously. Or is it seriously personal. Or personally serious. But this just is the problem with energized Religions, like Christianity and Islam and Chinese Communism, and emotionally empowered collective individualism (America?). We have to turn to Hinduism and Buddhism and Philosophy and only those Jews who still think we should keep the conversation going, to remember how silly it is to take things personally and seriously. But here's the thing. I think the meaning of Human and Homo sapiens and Adam to Adam is that we are beings who are touched with a consciousness that does take the situation personally and seriously. And this is the fall into Religion and The Patriarchy. The instant you think it is personal and serious you know The Maya, The World we live in today! We ate this apple. But since we can accept that our form of consciousness, even fully enlightened consciousness, must negotiate The World we do live in. This very world that is utterly perpetuated by how seriously and personally we take the situation. We get emotional; and the key to coming to the end of human emotional and religious problems is to first understand the nature of Blame. We are not out of The Story. If there "is" Blame it must exist in a story that begins somewhere and ends there. Ask yourself if you experience blame in this world - when you watch TV in America today, whether the news or the soap opera. We reek blame! We love the chance to take the upper hand in blame, and so to hurt the other. We are not content to admit shame or the obvious guilt in mistakes. No we are excessive creatures. Shame and guilt are not enough, we must blame on top of all that. And blame would not even have any meaning in a world where people did not take the situation personally or seriously.
I have carried the burden of an ancestry who used Jesus as a threat to people to make sure, not only to take this life seriously and personally, but the one to come. In fact, I have learned that it is Jesus himself, through St. Paul, who is our chief example of a man who took this life seriously and personally. The radical irony is that Jesus says yes to The Human Condition that just does take this life personally and seriously, as utterly absurd as such a thing is! Jesus does not say yes to the transcendence of The Human Condition. He says yes to The Human Condition. And the human condition is tinged with lust and with blame. And if you are a Man the "Jesus" I speak of is already the incarnation of a concept physically holding you to the line of your Geometry. It is the Human problems with Religion that we are here to complete! No one transcends the human condition today! You are not free of the issues of Religion as long as you still live in a world where people are still talking to each other in a serious and personal way, never mind making weapons designed for only one reason: to kill other human beings deemed blameworthy. The world will be free of blame when we put down our weapons and start a proper argument for all to witness! The world will be free of blame when enough people actually understand the dogma of NO BLAME! Just no blame! We don't get to blame each other anymore. Sure, bring on the shame! Let's shame all the men who still think guns are going to bring us what we long for! And bring on the guilt! Let's have film crews go everywhere making sure we do the right thing and serve. We make mistakes! In fact, there is another way to understand the human condition from an evolutionary point of view. As soon as the mind became a factor, some 90 thousand years ago, the mind has had to deal with the sheer fact of trial and error in form. The mind is really not about mistakes, though it must be conscious of error in its simple clarity.
The gnostic writings are accounts of one's own messianic journey. Paul and an encounter with his inner self and created the story of Jesus. The truth is within, as the next piece of writing deals with. But here we are relating to the mirror of the story of Abraham being experienced by the Gnostic as one's own experience of following the master within. This is the true meaning of Heresy. An individual comes along and infects the world with an account of his own experience following the very story of Abraham. (I am not even trying to sound like Kierkegaard.) There must always be the chance to tell your own story as really the only story you can tell. To make such writing Scripture is a heresy, but it is nevertheless the heretical writings that have become the scriptures of the world. But a personal and serious story must have universal significance or it does not make it into the world for testing and refinement and challenge.
I was born and raised in India. I studied in Canada and got degrees in Theology and Psychology and Counseling Psychology. I got married and had two kids. I came to the United States to work, and got divorced. I had an emergent experience in 1998 in relation to the information of Pure Language, or The Human Design System. I floundered for 10 years and did a lot of art with my feet and wrote crazy stuff. I met a great woman who let me stay with her so I could keep studying the HDS and refine my art. We made a seven year commitment, since I am on the cross of migration, after all! In the care of that occult cave I was able to research specifically the knowledge of prenatal sequencing, relating the matrix and the sequence to everything I could read that showed enough clear detail. I finally turned to poetry and quit writing crazy stuff like this. But then I got an apple.
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